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Me and Gelo have been together for almost nine years ( since 1997). And yes , we have been through a lot of things. It was never an easy road  since we started.. a lot of issues came up especially after getting married (meaning even before Joaquin was born). i was on my family way when i was bombarded with ghosts that i never knew existed. so just imagine how hard it was for me.

but i know that love has always been there… we managed to keep everything intact.

but i guess, the past would always be a venue for hurt and for those ghosts to re appear. After knowing the real stories behind the ghosts of our relationship, it simply made me feel sick. I know it will happen. BUt hearing the truth behind the ghosts straight from his mouth was something else. It hurts a lot… and up to now, when i think of all those things, i get teary-eyed..almost! Hmmm.. i was able to see a ghost’s profile at friendster, i actually met a ghost during joaqui’s baptism (but never had a chance to talk to her ahahaha), and met one ghost who named her son after gelo! KAPAL NG MUKHA MO HOY!.. im starting to be a byotch na naman. why not??? hahaha

My whole point??  I still get jealous, I still get hurt, I still get sad and disappointed on
little things such as “Why did you look for her at friendster and asked her to be ur friend?"…" why didn’t u tell me that her son who was named angelo as well was ur inaanak? " … "why didn’t u tell me that u are close to her because she is ur friend’s mistress.." ..  But when Gelo simply looks at me everytime i ask him these questions,
i know, deep down, those are ghosts and ghosts are just… ghosts.. haunting ME.

And ghosts are harmless when you simply make them harmless too.
I would
sometimes like to believe that ghosts exist simply because you believe in them.

So for now,
for me, they DO NOT  exist.

We were able to shoooo away these ghosts. ( hmmm sana nga talaga.. ryt gelo?)

and why am i writing this??? i simply wanna let go of these issues.. the ghosts of our past wud now be all gone. and if ever.. mabasa man nila to … sorry at mamatay sila sa inggit!

HE IS MINE… HE ALWAYS WAS!

*** today is actually gelo’s birthday, i know this wud be a nice gift for him… letting him know that i throw away his ghosts of the past.. hahaha. at kung babalik man ang mga ghost na yan.. aba.. sobra na to! sabay ko na sila itatapon. haahahah!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY GELO… JOAQUIN AND I LOVES YOU SOO MUCH

 

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